I Do All Right

ALL RIGHT!
well i do all right
HOW SO?
i swing right past the light
OOO-EE!
don't have to know what darkness means
TRI-MET!
ravage my senses on public transportation
someone set me free
& it's a load of shit & temporary
someone set me free
i return the favor, it's still temporary
ALONE!
i took that smell home with me
SO WHAT?
it meant EVERYTHING
HOW'D IT FEEL??
i felt like giving in
TOO BAD!
how many more angles left?
WHAT'S NEXT?
black magic, compulsive faith
WHAT ELSE?
the Buddha’s detached sterile grace
making all the noise i can
with the sound of my bad times
making all the noise i can
with the sound of my own bad times
someone set me free
& it's a load of shit & temporary
someone set me free
i return the favor, it's still temporary
in a west coast groove.

Zombietime (last bus in town)

i was just about to speak
but something weird came back in view
i couldn't make a move that didn't lead to trouble
& i couldn't hit my next thought
without certainly collapsing
& the drinks were salivating
so much i almost drowned
i swear i was on to something
no one else there could divine
i was stuffed with words & feelings
half-constructed & half-felt
...my fingers lost sensation
i gripped my glass so tight
caught a whiff of desolation
i do this all the time
so scared of my fear
i couldn't ask for help
you’re so BEAUTIFUL tonight!
there's green desire in your lungs
& i'm absolutely certain
that the morning's gonna come
& unfurl a peaceful mess
that i'll cling to like a vine
a vacant grand spaciousness
& the alley dog's thick smile
the sunlight will pierce my skin so right
i'll bend down & cry.

Yr Rotten Luck

first things first
you'll fall in love & you'll drink too much
but not from thirst
you'll wake up singing, wake up pleading
for one more night
one more night to curse
your rotten luck, your rotten luck
oh you- you’re an open wound
oh you- give it all away too soon
oh you- you work so hard
she should learn to love the way you do
the way you do
you'll dream madly & you won't need drugs
to know your star is out there shining
you'll wake up shivering, wake up believing
in the night before
the night you turned your rotten luck
into something else, into something more
oh you- you’re an open wound
oh you- give it all away too soon
oh you- you work so HARD
you should learn to love, the way i do
the way i do
& you quickly cross to the other side of the street
cos you see a whore you used to know & meet
& you’re walking with a girl you’re thinking you could love
& a fear you can't name gives your heart a shove
& your breath grows short on humid side streets
& you strut like you know you was built for speed
& you’re keeping the end of your story at bay
you’re keeping the end of the story at bay
trying to turn your thin desire
trying to burn your thin desire
trying to turn your thin desire
into something else, into something more...

Hey World

i've seen you operate & i've tried to figure out
how we, we could meet
oh yeah, you knocked me out when you told those rat-faced boys
you'd fuck em in the street
& there's a swamp right here in the heart of the city
the digital billboard glows spooky & pretty
& i go out of my skin to prove that i'm here
hoping for the best is all that i dare
& there's a swamp right here in the place you call home
the light rail hums & sings like a lover's moan
& i go out of my skin  to prove that i'm here
hoping for the best is all that i dare
so i tried the number at the hotel where you work
& i think it was you  but was too scared to be sure
i don't think i could love you
but there's alot of other things
not necessarily sex,  though that's something to think about
& there's a swamp right there where a prison stood
the smell of sulfur & oil is so fucking good
& i go out of my skin to prove that i'm here
hoping for the best & gasping for air
HEY WORLD! let's get undressed
HEY WORLD! i want to make you cum
HEY WORLD! how much more for TENDERNESS?
HEY WORLD! you fuck me up
i like to get fucked up
i like to get fucked
HEY WORLD
you

fuck

me.

Born Nervous

these are shining moments
though the guy at the bar just shrugs
i hope the power i'm feeling
outlasts these drugs
been a malcontent from day one
born nervous & perpetually stunned
hey man, what you want me to say?
i'm outnumbered & i like it that way
i may be alone forever
still, i'll whisper in your ear
'we may have some bad times together,
but the good time starts here'
been a malcontent from day one
born nervous & perpetually stunned
hey man, what you want me to say?
i'm lust-driven & i like it that way
been a malcontent from day one
born nervous & perpetually stunned
hey man, what you want me to say
i'm love-sickened & i like it that way
ended up with my arms wrapped round a building
the size of a small town
thought i might like to die there, but i'll keep looking
for a partner in crime
been a malcontent from day one
born nervous & perpetually stunned
hey man, what you want me to say?
i'm overdrawn & i like it that way
i'm born too loose & i like it that way
i get the shivers & i like it that way
i'm corrupt but loyal & i like it that way
i'm warm-blooded & i like it that way
there's a grey area & i like it that way
i'm born nervous & i like it that way
i'm a human being...
elevated, exalted on this freezing avenue
oh to send this emotion back to you
oh to send this emotion back to you
i like it that way.....

I’m Too Easy On Myself (and You’re So Hard To Please)

i knew a witch in california
she said this love's surely gonna destroy you
well, she'd never met you
but she knew you were special
in a narcissistic sort of way
i rode the night train to seattle
i tried to drink myself to a vision
things moved so fast
i lost track of time
i was incanting your name like a vigil
i'm too easy on myself
words explain difficult emotions
too easy on myself
& you’re so hard to please
spirits screwed with my research
i left a good friend in the lurch
you converted me
you inverted me
sick & stoned on the blood of your church
i thought life was like a biblical rupture
western hands working hard to corrupt you
i lost control of myself
threw my good name away
but all the drama was just interruption
when you confide in me
when you reside in me
but best of all,
the cracks i make in you.
i knew a witch in california
she said "again baby, please...i implore you."
trying to hold on tight
wandering in to the night
knew my heart & mind could never afford you
how could i be so desperate, so dumb
to scream to the world what i was dreaming of?
i should have kept it close
so only you could hear
your power's worth neither dancing nor love.
i'm too easy on myself
words explain difficult emotions
so easy on myself
& you’re so hard to please
you’re so easy on yourself
& i'm so hard to please.

Hunger

you feel it in your bones                            
you feel it so it hurts                              
it goes past what you know                     
& it tells you what to do                         
your sullen grasping hunger
arches back & spits its seed                    
down on burnside & 20th                       
our insides externalized                           
we fought through the heart of                    
many nights.                                         
12 minutes of emotion                
are all i had today
all the dirt in my heart
felt so temporally pure.
your massive gulping hunger
beats the evil out of me
upon the ocean of your bed
our insides externalized
we fucked through the heart of
many nights.
we make great things happen
even if they won't last
windows are thrown wide OPEN
& we don't give a shit about the past.
you feel it in your bones
you dig how light you feel
look up at the ceiling
& fight to keep it here
your delicious fucking hunger
makes some weird sin in me
down on burnside & 20th
our insides externalized
we're strange creatures
pale & large in the light of the night

Now I Know

when i first heard you speak
i knew i had to have you
your lips surrounding
your tongue a massive library
i knew, i knew
knew i wanted you
had to tell you face to face
i'm obsessed with you
out of the taxi, out of the void
i wasn't even paranoid
usually a wall or some kind of hole
i never cared, but now i know
i know, i know
know i wanted you
just had to tell you, lip to lip
i'm in love with you
the devil took a corner of my heart just to let me know
you’re the one, the only one
you know the devil was in my heart
he's an honest cat & he convinced me
he convinced me that you are the one
you’re the one, you’re the one
the only one for me
i knew, i knew
knew i was in thrall to you
just had to tell you baby, sex to sex
i'm obsessed with you
you are loved.

Beggar & Chooser

what's your new name? what you call that fear inside?
self-conscious & wary, but hungry all the same
it's something inside, maybe deep inside
it's thin & it's starving
give it a bite, give it some TIME
i take your spirit uptown, but you just keep breaking down
this night should fill you with delight
wish i could make things right for you
i love to watch when you’re deranged enough to dance
when you’re angry & proud to be a LOSER
when the world just might be all yours
cos you’re a beggar & you’re a chooser
why are you still cursing? what you call that fear inside?
the terrors in your mind will never give you mercy
it's something inside, way deep inside
it's thin & it's starving
INVOKE it tonite, set it on fire
i take your spirit uptown, but you just keep breaking down
this night should fill you with delight
wish i could make things right for you
but you’re collapsing at the bar, waiting for some secret to unlock
don't you know it's pleasure before pain?
you'll just endure until you stop
you just endure until you STOP.

Rolling Your Eyes Blues

you roll your eyes back when you sway your hips
i said, your eyes roll back when you sway your hips
i don't think you know, but when i watch you dance, my being flips.
i've tried to see what you see when your eyes roll back in your head
i try to say what you see when you roll your eyes
but it's too dangerous, girl - i just let those strange thoughts slide.
i spend my days in the city & my nights in your arms
i spend the days on the city streets & the nights are for your arms
the sun never looks better after a night of your dancing charms.
i'll wash your dishes, if you'll take me home
said, i'd eat your cootchie, if you'd only take me home
you can cum all nite long & i swear i'll pass out on the floor.
no, i don't have a job, cos i don't like to work
that may not appeal, darling - it's just a fact i've learned
sometimes i wear it like a badge & sometimes i get burned.
when i see you move, i know there's beauty in this world
you could do evil things & you'd still carry that grace
i'd say i'll follow you down, but i just might win that race.
i watch you dance & i never get bored
said i watch you groove & i praise the invisible lord
you’re a cure for something & it shivers in my spinal cord.
you roll yr eyes back when you sway your hips
i said your eyes are seeing things only a few have seen
cos they're all too worried bout the mundane to know what i mean.
i've tried to see what you see when you roll your eyes
i try to sing what you see when your eyes roll back in your head
but it's too much for me, girl - i just collapse on the bed.

Glory of the Sun

in the glory of the sun
at dawn
looking down at the street below
& you naked in a corner of the bed
being born again
being born again
in the glory of the sun
in the glory of the sun
in the glory of the sun
so full of joy like i'm retarded
the fever's broken
the birds are joking with the cats
i brush your lips with my sacred lips
breathless, calm & lusting
after what comes next
in the glory of the sun
at dusk
wondering how to pin the night
& grab it by the throat & make it flare
being born again
being born again
in the glory of the sun
in the glory of her cunt
in the glory of the sun.

Perfect Life

the perfect life's right in front of me
and i'm feeding its shadow
the tiny hand of gratitude
and i'm gnawing the knuckles

the city's lights burn down on me
but i'm bored blind
i can't afford the strange desires
the average ones leave me tired

please won't you say to me
i release you, go you’re free
i don't remember who i am
this moment's an embarassment

the perfect life's right in front of me
and i'm serving its shadow
the tiny hand of gratitude
and i'm gnawing the knuckles

the perfect life's right in front of me
and i'm feeding its shadow
i won't be swayed by humanist pity
fuck the rich and their cities

please won't you say to me
i love you, this is equality
please, i want your lips
to reclaim myself with a kiss

please won't you say to me
i release you, go you’re free
i don't remember who i am
this moment's an embarrassment .

Munky

Truth Drug

i got hold of a truth drug
i'm not sure what it means
but i'm dying to try -
i've got a good idea.

i see you talking in the payphone
& if i put it in your drink
would i really want to witness
i'd love to drown in your leaks

i got hold of a truth drug
i like the idea & the power
you know the will draws strong
on the palm of my hand

i'd know the lies you came up with
were the truth in your sleep
i'd know what's truly allowed -
& where my truths cease.

i got hold of a truth drug
it may be the last thing i need.

Occult Piss

when we first met,
clouds heaved & burst
insight came as a kiss
followed as a curse
on a bed soaked in oils,
strange flowers & perfume
i bent the walls to your cell
i gave you something to lose
no second thoughts
it's too late for regret
what follows you now
will never relent
out in the cold
in the wind's rush & hiss
you want some kind of power
not an occult piss
now a black heart shimmies
at the back of the bus
what your body craves,
your mind will never trust
no second thoughts
no cheap regrets
what follows you now
will never forget.

Estrogen Mess

fate
swung a thick fist & almost threw you away
hey
when the knife bit your neck & you bit his dick so hard that
both of you screamed
when you were walking
the streets of rochester
in a blue sleek dress you were so thin
your hips made a mess of so many minds
& it just got weirder
you
come in the room like an eternal threat to love
you
tell me you’re dreaming & things'll start bleeding
if you open your eyes
when you were walking
down lyell avenue
in the warm summer rain nothing was grim
your smirk made a mess of so many minds
& it just got weirder
now you wake up displaced
you forget your own face
you’re terrified by the limits
of your immediate space
you wake up displaced
buildings roar in your face
you’re so scared, you’re so scared, you’re so scared
you’re so scared...

Already Dead

 so wild, hitting a wall
i've been living like there isn't a life in me
down & down, spinning lines off
like a genuine poet, yeah, you should have seen me
feeling like dave kelly, stretched out on the hospital bed
i was so corruptible

i was a credit to nothing at all
struck dumb, guess the west coast won
some cowboy's grinning at me as i spew jumbled thoughts
casting runes against the empty bed
put my soul up as ante cos i knew it was lost
feeling like dave kelly, beat & lost in a rural estate
i was so corruptible

i was a credit to nothing at all
got a way of holding pain in, a methodology to closing my heart off
where a door opens wide, then closes with a cough
this concentration you see; it's called paranoia
the way she looks at me,  MY LORD! i'm already dead
one day when you’re old, with a scared & scarred heart
& black magic's seeping out of your kitchen garbage
& the devil's knocking, but he won't come in
i'll be down where the pleasure (violence) is
drinking toasts to vic godard & the rest
cos when the chips are down, they look like friends
yeah, when the chips are down, those guys are still you